Happy soon to be new year! I'm purposely trying to dodge working on the chapter I need to get written. I am so bad about procrastination.

Been awhile since I could actually get on to post, so I’m trying to take advantage of it.

I have no resolutions. I see them as being for suckers at any rate. I do want to lose weight and lose some debt in 2006.

Christmas was tough again this year. Pretty easy compared to last year, but it still sucked horribly.

I’m used to Mom being gone. How shitty is that? Well, wait, maybe I’m not "used" to it. I have caught myself thinking about calling her, especially when one of the kids does something funny or incredible. I miss her.

When Ella was born, I thought she looked like Mom, especially around her eyes. When we were at Dad’s, we stopped at my friend Eric’s parent’s house. Linda and Mom were best friends. Linda immediately said that Ella looks like Mom. So, there is a part of her living on in her granddaughter - not just the name.

Need sleep. More later.